Sometimes things are unfair

It can be so hard to accept how unfair things are at times. You can get mad and throw a fit about it or just accept it knowing it's not something you can change. I know I can't make others act the way I would like them to even if there not being very good to me. I've decided to see this as training in humility. Letting some one get the better of me because they don't value me won't improve the situation or make me feel better. I will keep working hard knowing that God appreciates the effort. It can be infuriating at times to be unappreciated and looked down on but in the end I know I don't need other peoples approval to know I'm a decent person. On the bright side of things, math training is coming a long well and I did get to talk to people today who I don't normally get to spend much time with.

Hmph

I really love doing art but I realised it may never become a career or it may take a very long time for it to happen to a point where I could sustain myself on it. Most of my day is spent creating art for the relaxation and enjoyment it brings me but I don't want to stay where I am job wise for the rest of my life. That's why I decided to go get job training. I feel like a nit saying I would never go to college but I always viewed that as obtaining a degree whether it be a associate all the way up to a masters. I'm looking to get a diploma and pass a national exam so I can become a certified pharmacy technician. It took a long time to decide to do it but one day I was talking with a work friend and I just suddenly felt like I needed to do it, that it was the right time so I called up the school, had a interview and I'm taking a admissions test Thursday. I'm still striving to sell my art at work and maybe online but I'm accepting that it is not a short term goal. I really like everyone I work with but the work itself is boring and at some point I know I'm going to go crazy not doing something that challenges me more. The school is small and the man running the program is very nice so I felt really comfortable there. Most people that I saw studying seemed older and calm which was a relief to me. I really did fear hoards of people with complexes because of there education. lol  I've done pharmacy work before such as sorting, filling orders, and compounding so at least I have a little bit of a heads up. Blah off to study more math because I really suck at math. I know there requirements aren't super  high but really I'm terrible and math is my mortal enemy. I hope I pass the first time around!

Thoughts

I feel like everything is right in the world when I simply live in faith whole heartedly.  There is no fear or concern in a state like that because I simply believe God will be there to help get me through anything that comes to pass. Everything in life just seems so unimportant without God in it. Nothing I do on a day to day basis would really be meaningful if I wasn't doing it for him. How I treat people means more to me then how rich or successful I can be. Money and prestige are not important to me. I really value knowing kind people. The type of people who would help you just because it's right, just because they care. I'm actually happy in some ways being a housekeeper because there is very little in the way of pretentious attitudes. At vet clinics there was sadly a lot of it and it was so frustrating to me. You could be a astrophysicist but if your mean I'm not going to be gushing with respect for you. Well that is my disorganized thoughts for the day.